Is the Universe Telling Me Not to Get Over Him?

Dear E. Jean: How can things just go “poof”? The guy I fell for, not just any guy—the guy—met someone else and my heart broke into tiny pieces. I’ve tried so hard to move on, but it’s as if the universe does not want me to let go of him. It seems to be sending signs everywhere, reminding me of him—of us. Does this mean we are destined to be together? Is the universe telling me something? —I Want to Believe!

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Believe, My Earth Girl: As a woman who has traveled 72 times around the sun and who is, at this very moment, drinking a Kir Royale and joyriding across the cosmos at 1.3 million mph (the speed at which our galaxy is flying), I am infinitely well qualified to advise you whether the universe is telling you something—or not.

But first, you must answer a question:

The heart—the one that “broke into tiny pieces”—is it still beating?

It is? Good. That heart is made of carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, and other atomic elements. And those atoms were made by stars exploding long ago, when the universe was young and moody. Indeed, not only your heart but your mind is made of stardust. The astronomer Carl Sagan said, “We are a way for the universe to know itself. Some part of our being knows this is where we came from. We long to return. And we can, because the cosmos is also within us. We’re made of star stuff.”

Do you grok, my girl? In the most far out, Queenhell way, the universe is sending you signs, as you are the one seeing the patterns, decoding the signals, and making sure they’re signed, sealed, and delivered to you.

When you change, the signs you see the universe sending you will change. Thus, the best way to move on is to meet some new chaps and throw the cosmos into a paroxysm of confused delight. Good luck! Let us know how your astrophysical experiments are going.

This letter is from the E. Jean archive.

5 Women on Telling Their Moms They Don’t Want Kids

Having a child is a deeply personal decision. It’s also one that is complicated by societal (read: patriarchal) pressures–women are socialized to be caretakers, to believe that motherhood is an inherent part of womanhood. (There’s an entire slogan on Etsy saying that “only the best moms get promoted to grandmas,” as if a child’s choice to have children is a comment on one’s parenting.) Still, can you really tell your own mother to stay out of it?

Bea Arthur, a therapist and psychologist, says it’s important to understand where parents are coming from. “Being from Ghana, family is really important in our culture,” she says of her own parents, “so if you have kids, your kids take care of you because there’s no social security. So my mom is like, ‘I just want someone to take care of you.’ I know where they’re coming from, but that’s the only way they understand emotional support.”

She cautions not to confuse the goal of acceptance with validation. “This generation was encouraged to be very expressive, and they feel like ‘you need to hear me and validate me,” she said. “And parents are from different generations, different worlds it can feel like. So you need to see how you can talk to each other and relate to each other beyond these conditions. Can you still love each other, even if you don’t agree with what the other one wants?”

Some moms will recognize that having children is a personal choice. For Jill, 30, who is single and genderqueer, the conversation has been relatively easy. “She’s always been very understanding and accepting of my position about having kids, even though I know she’d love to have a grandchild. But she always reiterates that it’s 100% my choice, and has told me that it’s better to regret not having kids than it is to regret having them.”

Kat’s mom was also supportive, even though “there might have been some surprise, because I enjoy kids generally.” But she advises spinning the news as a positive choice you’ve made about your own life, rather than an experience you’ll be deprived of. “Moms like knowing their kids are happy. If you can show her you’ve made a choice that makes you feel excited about your future and content in the present, she’s likely to get on board.” Arthur agrees, saying if you “lead with why it’s about for you, and why it’s not about them,” and that you’re telling them this because you value honesty in your relationship. They may not take it as personally.

“It would probably help if we all worked a little harder to keep each others’ context in mind.”

But for moms who do take the choice personally, it’s important to remember that their reaction is Not About You. When Haley brings up her and her partner’s disinterest in parenthood to their mothers, she says it’s usually met with an eye roll or anxiety about not having grandkids. But she says firm, hoping her mother will realize that “no one is out here choosing to not have kids because they want to spite or victimize their parents, or because they don’t like children. Children are expensive, heart-wrenching, lovely, fulfilling nightmares. They aren’t for everyone, even perfect adjusted adults who generally like children.”

In general, though, understand that you may not agree. “It would probably help if we all worked a little harder to keep each others’ context in mind. The world that I’m in is very different than what my mom was navigating when she had my sister and I,” said Alison. And it’s possible to help your mother deal with her disappointment or shock without succumbing to pressure. “You may not be able to keep your mom from guilting you over your choice, but that doesn’t mean it’s the wrong one for you,” says Haley. “Be gentle with moms, and yourself—everyone’s lives look different.”